Aphantasia – Living a life without mental images

imagination_infinity_desktop_1280x1080_hd-wallpaper-1079800-e1440732927614-1050x700Did you ever ask yourself if the way you are thinking is any different from the way other people think? The question itself is already strange. I always thought everyone thinks the same way. But this is not the case. Continue reading Aphantasia – Living a life without mental images

Friendship and the value of a true friend

I was one of those kids that always tried to make friends. Good friends. I always knew a lot of people. They also knew me. But it was never even close to something you woulimages1d call real friendship. I tried a lot of things to be a part of different groups of people. In the end I mostly was the one who was used for stuff. I was the one where everyone could drop their problems and the one Continue reading Friendship and the value of a true friend

I gave up on love completely until I found it

I had given up on love – until I found true love.

I cannot even count how often I heard that line “Everything happens for a reason”, “Love will find you”, “Have patience”. I didn’t want to have patience. I didn’t want to wait until Cupid shoots his little love arrows around. The risk was simply too highimages Continue reading I gave up on love completely until I found it

Defeating the feeling of not being good enough


It started with very small things. “You laugh too loud, it makes me feel ashamed”, “I think you should do it like this”, “Why did you do this again, I told you that I don’t like it”. At this point in time I should have packed my stuff and should have left – but I didn’t. I tried to accomplish a mission. The mission to please someone who never Continue reading Defeating the feeling of not being good enough

Finding the right people at the right time

It was quiet the last weeks. Very quiet.

People who are busy in the spiritual field also have bad days. Not everything is wonderful and colorful – but right in those dark moments lies the biggest potential for awesome growth. It is that moment when you are on your knees, crying out all that emotional pain and letting yourself drown in all those feelings. 5dsoull

I was at this point during the last weeks. I managed to do my daily tasks. I managed to go to work and do the stuff that needed to be done. But as soon as I sat down after all daily things were finished.. that flood of thoughts, emotiones, feelings made me drown completely.

I do know that everything happens indeed for a reason and of course I know that everything around me is a huge mirror Continue reading Finding the right people at the right time

Dear Narcissist

Dear Narcissist,

It took me 14 years to realize the manipulative grip you had on me as an empath. What felt like true love actually turned into a nightmare from which it was almost impossible to wake up.

Loving yourself is actually a good thing. Realizing your worth and acting out of a place of selflove is a beautiful thing. Loving yourself has nothing to do with selfishnessdownload (2) Continue reading Dear Narcissist

Breaking the daily routine

We grow up in a society which trains you all your life that you have to finish school with good grades and that you have to do your best to find a well paid job so you will be able to afford a big house.

While you are on that path does somebody care why some subjects in school are simply not your cup of tea? Everything is brought down to numbers and grades and dates. When you finally surviveddownload Continue reading Breaking the daily routine

Emptiness – how to fill the inner black hole

It comes like a huge wave of energy through your whole body. It lets you almost drown. Without mercy. Consuming your mind and your body. Your thoughts and feelings. Your inner and outer world. Screaming for help is worthless as nobody will hear you anyway. Struggling with this intense feeling will only make you sink deeper inside the depths of your own emotions. This black hole of pure darkness is getting more and more grip on you. The deeper you sink, the less someone will hear you crying out for help.download1 Continue reading Emptiness – how to fill the inner black hole

Disappointment and Expectations

Sometimes it only needs a very small event and disappointment hits us like a mighty lightening. Why is that? How can we prevent this from happening?

Disappointment itself is nothing more than a feeling when expectations we had are not met. So why dont we just turn off the expectations and live a happy and fullfilled life without being ever disappointed?images (2) Continue reading Disappointment and Expectations

Coming out of the spiritual closet – Blue pill vs Red pill

A lot of people have a lot of opinions about a lot of spiritual practices and/or people which are involved with spritiual things.

It’s time to get out of the spiritual closet and to talk openly about what it is like to be on the spiritual path. This can help people who are going through the same experiences and on the other side of the cimages (1)oin it can help people who have nothing to do with it to understand what we are experiencing. Continue reading Coming out of the spiritual closet – Blue pill vs Red pill